We’ve Come A Long Way

Izzy sits next to me staring off at the tv with a haze over her eyes from the morphine drip. She holds a bucket in her lap and wears a wet wash cloth on her head, both because of the nausea she feels. Every vital on her monitor is flashing red because they are all too high, the beeping has not stopped in hours. This is our second round of antibody and it is getting more intense as the hours pass but when I look at her I keep thinking, “she has been through much worse than this.”

A year ago today we got the dreaded news that threw us completely off the course of life we were on and sent us spinning down another path, this journey through Neuroblastoma. I could have never imagined what was in store for us. It is a journey that has thickened my skin while bruisng it. A journey that has unwoven the borders of my faith completely, leaving only a ball of yarn where the tapestry once was. It has taught me that faith isn’t woven together neatly at all. There will always be questions, always be things we cannot understand, always be suffering. Once upon a time I thought I knew what pain was, what worry was. This journey has taught me that I had no idea.

As I look back on this past year I cannot believe that I have survived. It’s hard to believe that I am still standing, let alone smiling. Now, on the other side of the mountain of this past year I can only smile, with tears of joy maybe, that we have made it through so much. IZZY has made it through so much, and as I stand here a year to the dreaded day of her re-diagnosis I am both proud and thankful – we have made it a long way.

You never think you can do some things until you look back and realize you did. The truth is, we couldn’t have done this without the grace of God constantly pouring over us. Everyday He has been faithful to give us new energy, new strength and above all hope. He has kept His mighty hand on Israelle throughout her intense suffering and various complications. We would not be standing without Him. We simply could not have made it. And we could not have made it without so many of you.

From the very beginning there have been so many people who came alongside of us to offer love and support.  So many cards, messages, packages and fundraisers. We have been blessed from people we have known forever and some we have never met. People have gone completely out of their way to shower us with love. And from the bottom of our heart we say ‘thank you.’ Even to those we have never spoken to but who have been praying for Izzy, ‘thank you.’ You, too, have made a difference in our lives.

On this day where I thought cancer would sentence me to bouts of bitterness and self pity, God has given me the grace to feel, in their place, gratitude and hope. I am choosing to celebrate that we have one year of treatment behind us, that we have been No Evidence of Disease every step of the way and that this little girl has alot to be proud of. She has fought like a warrior and she is winning.

I don’t know what is in store for us in this next year to come. For today I am choosing not to look at statistics. Izzy is not a number, she is a God breathed creation with a destiny. She is an heiress to the throne of God and the sum of her life is more than a percentage. My prayer is that only the best will come. That we will complete this round of antibody and the next three with flying colors. I pray she will have no more treatment in the months and years to come because this disease has fled her body forever.

Thanks for walking this journey with us. Your love and support are priceless.

8 thoughts on “We’ve Come A Long Way

  1. I am one who has never met you and never spoken to you, but you know who I am through your grandmother. I feel as though I know you and Izzy and am thankful you have the strength, energy, faith to share your fight and thoughts as you go through the path you never imagined you would go through. You go IZZY WARRIER PRINCESS!! We are all praying for you and know that GOD is with you every step of the way. Love and prayers

  2. YES friend, YES!!!! I am so truly proud of you & your family for conquering a whole year with amazing faith & strength (even if there were times you didn’t feel it) You are an awesome Mama to Izzy & Carter & God knew what He was doing when He choose you & Kendrick to parent them. Love you ALL so very much & I am honored to have you guys as friends!!! Tell Izzy I love her & continue to fight with her mighty strength. Continue to remember & be comforted by ALL that you have each overcome.

  3. We love you four! We continue to fight in prayer for Izzy…. and we thank God for His faithfulness to you in this past year. You are all heroes to us!!

  4. God bless you guys! Big hugs from someone you’ve not met.
    She and her lovely family remain in my prayers.

  5. YES Lord Jesus! Only You can grant strength in the midst of this kind of pain. Wrap your arms tightly around Molly, Kendrick, Carter, and Izzy!!!

  6. I am so happy things are where they are today. Izzy has tremendous strength like her mom n her grandma. Keep fighting. We keep praying that Izzy can beat this!

  7. Molly, I never reply because I don’t have words to say. How can you speak when you are not the one facing what Izzy and your family are facing? But I do want you to know that I carry you all every day in my heart and in my prayers. Prayers, many prayers. I read every blog and hang on to every word. Through your pain, your honesty, your discouragements and your triumphs you are discipling us all. As I was reading in Revelation today about great tests of faith, I thought of you and your family and know that your roots are going so very deep, so that you will stand firm (as we read in Jeremiah 17). Bless you, Molly, and know that you are loved and prayed for continuously.

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