Sometimes I forget that she has cancer. Â That we have cancer. Â I forget about this life and death thing we're talking about. Â There's just so much that happens in the day to day, so much energy that goes into keeping track of the details of this treatment that most of the time I forget what …
Many Thanks
The feeding tube insertion went as well as expected yesterday. Â It's taken her 24 hours to get used to it being down her throat but she's handling it fine now. Â I thought it would take days, so I'm thrilled. Â The problem is that the sensation of having a tube down her throat has been causing …
Harder Than Expected
This week has already gone much harder than expected. Â The vomiting began last night before bed and she was still dry heaving when we arrived for more of this toxic wonder drug today. Â When we arrived the protein levels in her urine were too high to begin chemo so we had to wait hours to …
Kindergarten Harvest
Izzy and I left last night for her second round of chemo, leaving the boys at home for the week. Â Carter sat on our living room floor surrounded by Legos unmoved by our departure, but Kendrick and I felt the enormous tear in our family as I walked out the door. Â I wondered how doing …
Branches
Writing has always been therapeutic for me, but somehow during this season of life I find myself at a loss for words. So often I try to write and find there's no way to articulate all the emotion that I feel. I never knew it was possible to feel such a vast array of emotions …
The Fullness of Her Life
Tonight will be our sixth night at Riley. This morning we were encouraged to hear that her white count finally made it up from zero to 84. If tomorrow brings another positive jump we'll be able to go home. They are giving her platelets as I type because her platelets have dropped everyday since we …
The New Normal
The shock of this unthinkable season had begun to wear off so I headed to work today for the first time in over two weeks. Â Izzy was still having virtually no side effects from last week and I longed for some sense of normal. Â It was nice to do some of our same morning routines …
D is for Doll
After seven days inpatient, we are finally heading home later today. Â Day one was the central line. Â Days two through six were chemo, which she actually handled really well. Â And today she'll get a shot that will boost white blood cell production. Â It's a shot that she will always receive 24 hours after her last …
July 9
We are all settled in to our hospital room tonight and Izzy is sound asleep. Â The central line placement went fine today. Â There are now 2 cords running down from her breast bone to just below her pelvis. Â They can draw labs at the same time she is receiving IV meds if they need to. …
July 6th
We spent the rest of the week traveling back and forth to Cincy to complete prechemo testing. Â These tests will be performed throughout to monitor the impact, if any, the chemo is having on the heart, kidney function, and hearing. Â We're all set for our admittal on Monday. Â In addition, they conducted 2 scans yesterday …
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